It’s Scorpio season in the solar year now too. Before we move into the dreamscape of Kislev we have to face the shadows parts, the sleep-death, the fear.
Avraham soon envisions a terrifying kiln-fire blazing through split sacrifices, some primal residue from his time in the fires of Ur, in the fires which consumed his brother, that their father consigned them to. Abraham seems to constantly battle his terror, his strange blend of trauma.
But one can live in the shadows without facing it, without it becoming a helper opposite you. Noach spends a year on that ark, facing death shadows all around. And yet when he leaves – he leaves separated – apart from family in the way g-d wants. He kills what he spent a year protecting. And then he gets black out drunk, cursing his own son in the end.
All those across from us – face to face or in opposition – can be a knegdo ezer, a helper opposite. Abraham faces his mortal dread and tries to grasp the why of his actions. Noach tries to deaden himself to avoid just that.
MarCheshvan is a strange month. Let your opposite be your helper. Let the parts you fear and the shadows you repress, be freed – be pulled out of subconscious unknowing into awareness. And let them guide you forward into what dreams may come.
eish zarah 