וְעַבְדִּ֣י כָלֵ֗ב עֵ֣קֶב הָֽיְתָ֞ה ר֤וּחַ אַחֶ֙רֶת֙ עִמּ֔וֹ
But My servant Calev, because he was imbued with a different spirit …
While some commentators such as Ibn Ezra say this “different spirit” simply meant Caleb was of a different opinion than the other spies, Rashi brings up an interesting idea – that this “other” spirit refers to a dual, a twofold nature. Hello Gemini season!
Caleb was spying amongst the spies – “with one [spirit] in his mouth and another which he concealed in his heart.” How many of us in the Rainbow Community know the feeling, the dual nature of knowing in your heart what you can’t say? Of living amongst those unaligned with you?
And Caleb shows us the power of this great gift, this “ruach acheret” – by speaking up. White queers, this one is especially for us. Financially safe queers, its for you double. The spies were people with power in their family groups – “heads of Bnei Yisrael.” Caleb used that inherited power and didn’t stop speaking – even when no one else agreed, even when threatened by violence, even when confronted by extended family’s death threats.
Caleb spoke to deep hope for a home, spoke to land and comfort for this large band of weary freed slaves.
But the fear of the unknown is a powerful thing.
And the leeks and melons and fish of Mitzrayim were delicious.
When you are at your job, amongst the stranger, even yes in your places of worship – are you doing the work of embodying that ruach acheret, that other spirit? Are you individually ready, practicing, and willing to speak up against racism, ableism, classism? Use your power. Spy amongst the spies. Call out the things that keep us all from community connection, from diaspora home. Because a group that only protects queers with power? Is no real LBGTQ+ community.