Its Elul. It’s nearly Rosh haShannah.
I’m not ready. I’m never ready.
Friends, family, loved ones – I have hurt you. Yes, even you. There is no way to exist without brushing up against the hurts and harms we cause each other. Even people desperately trying to avoid confrontation can’t avoid the heartache of being human. Trust me; I’ve tried.
I would ask your forgiveness for the hurt I’ve cause you. If you do not want to forgive me, I’m so sorry I hurt you that much. My messenger and email are open if you want to tell me how I hurt you, because what is teshuvah – returning – without actual work. I can just listen or have a conversation. I hope these things might help those I’ve harmed.
I hope in the coming year I hurt you less. I hope in the the coming year you are hurt less, that you also hurt fewer people, that all of our compassion grows and turns towards one another.
Love to you and to you all. May it be a beautiful, sweet, meaningful, joyful Rosh haShannah.
eish zarah 